The purpose of this book is to explain the purpose of life in a way that those most desperate to understand it may accept it.
I experienced deep depression from about the age of 11 through 21, though I read the Bible through two or three times during that time and believed and trusted it. And even though God on a few occasions gave me a glimpse, sort of a vision, letting me see that the very reality which depressed me being actually perfect and a source of Heaven-grade joy. But those wonderful glimpses gave me no understanding.
Then I began writing a book. Without any explanation, I had the confidence that by the time I reached the end of it I would have all the answers I wanted, of which I had no idea as I began. I would understand the meaning and purpose of life, and it would be wonderful.
Now, half a century later, I am still trying to finish it. Not that I still lack the answers. The answers have flooded in beyond anything I could ever have imagined, giving me much joy. What has delayed me has been two things: first, I have found so many urgent things to write about and publish, related to what people do as a result of misunderstanding our purpose – urgent problems which hurt many people. In other words, I write about politics.
Second, I have found little interest in what I have discovered, even though the longing to understand these things appears to be fairly universal. The very understanding that most people most want, they most resist when offered by another! It is also what most people refuse to admit they care about, when offered it. I am still working on understanding this tragic irony. And I am still struggling to present what I have found in an entertaining enough format that some will accept it.
Ecclesiastes 1:18 says “For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.” He must be talking about the grief I experience that now that God has shown me so much, I find so much resistance when I try to share it, even from those who say they are desperate for such answers. I could understand if people would listen to what I have found and then conclude it is not correct, or helpful. But when people desperate for meaning in life shut their ears to the initial offer of answers, and will not listen to them, and will even persecute those who are too forward in offering them, I have to go back and re-read my own book to understand that, because it is so unbelievable. I am still working on that.
For a while I wondered if the rejection was just something about me. I wondered if only I experience it, but no one else on the planet does. Until I remembered that even God experiences it. God offered Eden to the first humans, the Promised Land to Israel, and Heaven to us, but human enthusiasm for it is pretty tepid. If acceptance of a perfect presentation of the best dreams come true is that spotty, I shouldn’t take it personally if my own presentation isn’t popular. Still!
Matthew 10:23 But when they persecute you in this city, flee ye into another: for verily I say unto you, Ye shall not have gone over the cities of Israel, till the Son of man be come. 24 The disciple is not above his master, nor the servant above his lord. 25 It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, [“Dung God”] how much more shall they call them of his household?
Although the answers I have found are validated by the Bible, they are not like anything I have seen theologians write who offer to explain life’s purpose according to the Bible. The example before me at the moment is a small tract, “The Purpose & Meaning of Life” by Ken Ham. It offers to answer what God did to get us into Heaven despite our sins, but does not explain what purpose of life we will experience in Heaven more than here, what “sin” really is, why it is contrary to our best interests, and if not, why God would be against something that makes us happy.
Such tracts are typically about the purpose God has for us, not the purpose we have for ourselves. I had determined early in my writing, through simple logic, that what will most satisfy us is our purpose – not what will satisfy someone else, if that is different. If someone else has a purpose for us that is different than what will most satisfy us, then he is our enemy to the extent he imposes that purpose on us, making our own satisfaction less available to us.
But I have found confirmation in Scripture that God even sacrifices His own best interests, to help us find what will most satisfy us. God loves us, in that sense, even more than human parents who routinely and joyfully sacrifice their own best interests to help their children to, in the words of the Marines slogan, “be all you can be”.
The literary vehicle that has evolved from those first pages I wrote 50 years ago, before computers were small enough to fit in homes, is the diary of an angel. The literary device is fiction, and it is funny, but I show you the Scriptures confirming the principles explained.
The diary begins before creation; when Satan rebelled. The angel writes about what went through the minds of Satan and those who followed him, and what happened to them as a natural consequence. It explains that sin is that which does not satisfy, despite the illusion that it does satisfy – a self deception we recognize today as something very much like an “addiction”.
(I don’t call him “Satan” in the book, but “Beelzebub”, a title used in the King James Version seven times. Because, first, it means “Dung God”, which seems so fitting; and second, because the name is funny.)
During creation, we learn how starlight from stars billions of years ago managed to reach Earth in four days. We learn how animals were made differently than man. Man alone was given the power to visualize alternatives to present reality, to choose whether to prefer them, and to make them so. Thus man was given the power to choose between better and worse – between good and evil. Animals, by contrast, are essentially robots, unable to choose to behave outside their programming. Although amazingly intelligent robots.
We learn that “evil” is a tool. It is our capacity at work to identify what we wish to change.
After creation, we learn what really hung on the Tree of Life and the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. You WILL NOT BELIEVE where Bible clues lead us on that subject! (Until you read the supporting verses, and maybe not even then.) The angels observe the amazing balance which humans must achieve between Law and Grace to reach the potential God gave them. We learn the purpose, for ourselves, of God’s commandments, we learn several ways humans misuse them, and we learn when they should not be applied. We learn how to apply these principles to human laws also. We even learn how the laws of America are, to an amazing degree, founded on these principles.
Then on that Seventh Day, the first Day of Rest, God gathers all the angels together and tells the angels stories of what it was like When God Was Alone. Here we learn about the nature of Consciousness, a miracle we actually share with God, but which is not experienced by plants or animals. We learn that there are certain features of consciousness which really could not have been created any other way that can be imagined.
One such feature is the intense concentration it requires to create well, which tempts consciousness to retreat from such labor and accept less than its best.
Another such feature is the horror consciousness feels when half-finished creations turn into nightmares, presenting consciousness with a choice at that point: either buckle down and create well, or further retreat, in search of that mythical “oblivion” sought by drunks, but which can never exist for consciousness. Because consciousness can’t get very close to it before it comes screaming, from boredom, back to complexity and challenge.
Love – defined in John 15:13 as placing another’s interests over your own – is what rescues consciousness from this see-saw, motivating it to create well no matter the personal cost, because that is what others need.
We learn from 1 Corinthians 13 that this love is the one thing that does not disappear when we transition from Earth to Heaven. We learn that love feels like happiness and satisfaction. Love is happiness and satisfaction.
Stories of the following 15 centuries before the Flood flesh out how all of this works together with God’s promise to work alongside us, helping us reach our dreams.
We learn that “evil” is a tool. It is our capacity at work to identify what we wish to change. What is good about it is that God gives us the capacity to change as much as we are willing to concentrate on changing.
Of course this includes our willingness to correctly understand how the thing works that we want to change, so that our clumsy efforts to tinker with reality do not become the evil which others pray they may change!
The fictional diary “records” several conversations that angels had with God.
I have discovered, quite by accident, that when I explain what I have found from the perspective of an angel, and of God, with lots of Bible backing, I am able to make past mysteries much clearer. Partly because when I present these ideas as if they were in conversation, I am able to portray more of the personality of God as I have come to know Him over my 70 years so far on this perfect planet – this planet, perfectly prepared, not just 6,000 years ago for some abstract “bride of Christ”, or for mankind in general, but perfectly prepared and offered to each of us.
We glimpse the plan God has followed these past 6,000 years to prepare a race of humans willing to choose Heaven, and unwilling to ever leave. We glimpse how this plan has shaped human history, culminating in nations – America in the lead – which choose to shape their laws and culture increasingly, over the centuries, after the principles of Heaven.
Yet as we approach the close of this era we see Islam, founded on the principles of Hell, maintaining to the end a clear choice for mankind: Life, or Death. Love, or Hate. Happiness, or Horror. Good, or Evil. God, or Satan. Purpose, or Emptiness.
The fact that human consciousness has proven more inclined to choose such evils over God’s best for us, over the centuries, proves the power God has granted us to choose. It shows how much God has laid on the table for us to choose from. He grants whatever we ask, with little restriction, as Job 1 confirms – God even answers Satan’s prayers! Satan’s prayers to God are bolder than the prayers of we Christians!
This universe God gave us is truly a reality in which we may have whatever we desire. But it is better than having a bottle you can rub and have a Magic Genie give you whatever you wish for, instantly. In this reality, you get to earn things by your own labor. You get to share credit with God for what you create – and God has proven to delight in sharing the honor with you! And that labor includes the study and concentration it takes to correctly understand what you seek to change, so that when you change it, it will truly and deeply satisfy you – which means among other things that it will be a blessing to others, manifesting your Love.
By presenting all of this on a WordPress blog, I hope to generate discussion of these truths. I hope you will not only comment on what is right or wrong, but offer specific suggestions how to make this “diary” better – how to edit it.
Thus endeth my sober explanation of what I have tried to accomplish with this book. Now hang on, because now the book is about to begin, which gets crazy real fast.